I think I have the best friends here on DS that I have ever had in all of my life!  Thank you all.  you have no idea NO IDEA how much I needed your ideas.   I'm going to try a couple of the things y'all suggested.  It was so nice to come on here and find so many people had read my entry and commented.  I'm going to get on later when I have more time and add to this...  I'm feeling much better and have decided to take Monday and Tuesday off of this next week to rest and recoup from all that is going on.  I'm also going to try to find the positive in each of the negatives I am facing.  There are many good things I did not mention the day before and I will also try and mention those later.  I am SOOOO busy so please continue to pray for me!  I need it.  Just know that the other day and all of this time.  THEY HAVE WORKED!