I freaking hate this life, this job, this stupid air we breathe, the food we eat EVERYTHING! Being Bp I don't know how to make decisions any more. I don't know if people are actually against me (which at work through confirmation from others who are not bp they are) or if I'm just being paranoid. I don't know if I want to quit because I'm miserable at the job or I'm just miserable and it won't matter where I'm at. I don't know anything anymore. I don't know how WE are supposed to make decisions when we can't see through this damn fog we have around our conscious. I want to be free. I want to slit my wrists and be free of this shitty existence!
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oh dear.. I am soooooooooooooooooo sorry you are having a tough time... No slitting wrists.. we can get through this. I am packing and moving but I promise to check up on you and if you need to chat.you just let me know hun ok???
Take a deep breath. Even with bp we are capable of making rational decisions. We just have to think through them a little more carefully. Are you manic or depressed right now? If you\'re not having an episode then what you\'re feeling is probably situational anger/anxiety that any normal person would feel under the circumstances.