I freaking hate this life, this job, this stupid air we breathe, the food we eat EVERYTHING! Being Bp I don't know how to make decisions any more.  I don't know if people are actually against me (which at work through confirmation from others who are not bp they are) or if I'm just being paranoid.  I don't know if I want to quit because I'm miserable at the job or I'm just miserable and it won't matter where I'm at.  I don't know anything anymore.  I don't know how WE are supposed to make decisions when we can't see through this damn fog we have around our conscious.  I want to be free.  I want to slit my wrists and be free of this shitty existence!