I'm so glad you sent this and I got it just now.  The shit really hit the fan today.  I dealt with his Ass so to speak.  Yesterday I went over to HR and plead the case of all of us without a paycheck.  They are now goign to pay us on time and the crisis on that front has passed.  Last night in our meeting my boss made a presentation that kind of went as follows... "I received a call today from "HR" that there was dicension over here and that I needed to get the paperwork in and that she was going to get us paid.  Well I want you to know that you have made my job very easy because part of my job is to choose who gets promoted and people that go behind my back will not be promoted. So you have made my job SOOOOO easy.  Don't think I don't know who you are because I have my ideas and I'm not going to be treated this way."  He said this in front of the entire company.  I was so upset.  I packed up all of my things last night loaded them in my car with the full intentions of quiting my job.  I was hysterical and crying and angry and just overall a mess.  I went home drank 4 beers talked with my MOm.  My hubby rubbed me down for an hour just carressing my body which I needed so badly and finally I fell asleep.  I slept in, I wasn't going to go into work today.  But God just convicted me to get up and go into work and face this thing head on.  He convicted me to talk to my boss so I came in dropped my stuff and went over to talk to him and that is when an AMAZING thing happened! I went in and stood up for myself.  I told my boss that I did not go and get us paid to spite him or go around his back.   That in reality I did not tyhink I was going around his back but instead that I was helping him by taking care of it.  I told him that he is loved and that everyone knows that he has been going through massive upheaval in his finances, that his daughter has pneumonia, that work has given him the job of 3 men and that he is doing a wonderful job.  That God has called him to do this great things and that he needed to stop apologizing, but he needed to forgive himself and trust that I am extending him grace and not attacking him.  He was really receptive to all of this and I think that there is going to be some real healing today.  I think that God spoke through me and I feel so good about all of these things that God is doing in my life to help me work through all of this despite my disease.  Praise God RIGHT!