I just got back from the Pdoc.  I've been feeling pretty good (I mean emotionally I'm still sick with this dang cold!)  Anyhow I told him that I think the Seroquel is working and that all systems seem to be a go.  Now that I'm thinking "more" clearly I realized that these feelings have been here ever since I started the Lamictal.  I started complaining about them about 5 weeks into Lamictal.  My Pdoc perscribed Hydroxyzine for the panic/anxiety/stress/paranoia.  The change was when I quit taking it because I was trying to get pregnant and Hydroxyzine isn't safe for the baby.  I think everything started building up until this most recent explosion of all these crappy emotions.  Anyhow the Seroquel is working and last night he was at a seminar talking about women's health (prego and not) and bipolar.  He said they said Seroquel was safe like Lamictal but he feels better if I were on Zoloft because it has more studies done on it.  So here we go again. Another med change!  Now that I'm feeling better I don't feel as scared of this change as the last one.  Especially now that the pregnancy is a go again.  Man he really scared and upset me when he told me he thought it would be 3-6months before we could start trying again.  He shouldn't have told me that when I was already upset.  He should have just said he doesn't know it all depends on my body and how it responds to the meds and what meds are necessary to get me stable... You know!  Tomorrow I go see the OBGYN to see what is going on with my hormones and why I might not be getting pregnant.  Wish me luck!