I'm trying to let yesterday be a bad day for my husband.  I know that I have a lot of bad days and I expect him to just understand I'm bipolar.  I expect him to allow me to be miserable for that time, I can't help it.  I often forget that he deserves a bad day and says things he doesn't mean just like I do.  It is actually very selfish of me to not give him that respect.  I mean seriously he takes a lot of shit from me.  He was a jerk and said a lot of assholeish things to me... However I do too and a lot more often then he does.   I think I'll just treat it like I want to be treated when I freak out on him.  I'm also pretty proud of my response in retrospect.  For years my Mom has told me that when Rickie gets like that to just go... Go somewhere else!  We both are not thinking clearly and nothing is accomplished by standing there and argueing about stupid stuff.  So for the first time I listened to her.  I'm glad I did, I'm surprised I did, I'm suprised I had the clarity and strength to leave.  Thank you all for your support... I'm hoping things are ok.  I know though that this is not over and that although I'm feeling pretty good, he still doesn't get it.   I want to repeat though That I am feeling good today.  I'm really glad.