OK...Now to my today Im' feeling journal entry.   I finally started (to a degree) following my dr's advice.  I"ve now doubled my dose of lamictal so I"m at 400 mg... I'm still at 100mg of Seroquel but I think he asked me to double that as well.  Unfortunately I just can't remember... I haven't started the Zoloft and I haven't fille dthe Ativan... I have a perscription for both and the instructions are on the bottles... But he gave me samples of hte Seroquel because money is an issue and he is trying to help me out.  I should have written down somewhere what he wanted me to take.  I think I will try to up it though tonight.  I feel much better today and I"ve spent a lot of the day trying to help others here.  I got this B-12 sublingual pills and it has helped with the morning up and at 'em energy issues.  I'm really worried about my relationship with Rickie right now. (I EMAILED A COUPLE OF YOU THIS AS AN "I NEED ADVICE" BUT I THOUGHT I SHOULD ALSO INCLUDE IT IN MY JOURNAL SO SORRY FOR THE REPITITION).  Because... I'm going through this major problem time, and a major med change. And I just found out from my Pdoc that I should stop trying to get pregnant b/c all the meds I'm NOW on are not safe. He also said that he thinks it might take 3-6 months for me to get stable. All of this information has me really freaking out and my husband has not spoken to me except to say stuff like, dinner is ready, the baby is bathed, are you coming to bed... You know functional language but nothing nothing else! I have tried several times to reach out and ask him for help and he has gotten mad at me. I don't know what to do... A lot of people have said that I should try to follow the Pdoc (well actually everyone). I seem to be the only one actually that thinks I should be able to make some decisions for myself. It's just hard to trust someone that throws a pill at you every time you go see them.  I know that is his job but still it kind of freaks me out.  I really need to go see my therapist but I'm really having a hard time with my budget now.  Anyhow it is good to be ok right now.  I have a lot of joint pain since I started the Seroquel but it isn't a listed side effect... any ideas on this one? HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL!TZ