VIVID DREAMS / VISIONSEmotionally I feel vulnerable and I had two very very vivid dreams that I don't know what to think of!  My first dream was about my asshole boss.  It isn't as clear as the second dream but what I remember is.... I was ten minutes back from lunch and he was so upset with me and told me that it was the last straw and I was fired.  He stood over me while I grabbed what I could and escorted me off the premise.  I woke up in a full on anxiety attack and then screamed at my husband because he was getting ready for work with the light on making me think that the whole dream was me coming around and not getting good sleep because of all the light in the room... who knows.  So my second dream last night/ this morning was of my semi-least favorite almost hated co-worker we will call him Joe.  He is African-American which for some reason I have always been EXTREMELY ATTRACTED TO!  I still think about my first love who was from the Bahamas and very beautiful.  Anyhow, We as a company were at some kind of function.  I don't know why we were there or what we were doing but we were standing outside of this building that could have been a movie theatre or school it had big columes outside with a covered sidewalk and red brick walls.  And those big doors that are made of glass like what you see at a school.  There was also a very large school bus yellow and all outside on the opposite curb.  I remember kind of liking this other guy and being distracted by that when Joe walked up and he was acting funny/mean. I started to walk away because it annoyed me when he grabbed my hand and pulled me around the school bus.  Where he pulled me to his body in such a way that my head was resting on his chest but nothing else was touching and my hands were just hanging at my sides.  He was holding me by my shoulders and I remember feeling so good.  Actually that good feeling has been with me all day.  Kind of a peaceful, massive attraction, basking in the glow of new love kind of feeling.  He started saying something I again can't remember what he was saying but it seemed like pouring out his love for me kind of words or like a prayer over me.  I'm not sure which but I remember waking wishing I could get back in the dream and feel that again, and I've felt that way all day.  I had a vision three days ago while I was awake but drifting off to sleep. It was this motherly figure leaning over my bed she was wearing an orange/red sweater and had that kind of poofy around the face hair, brown, and she leaned over and said something to me. It wasn't something I understood. And just as she said it I sat up in bed and thought oh shit!  I'm having a vision and she was gone but I turned over and immediately dropped off to sleep... I had a dream last fall sometime about this same boss of mine.  Only this one seemed like more of a prophetic dream.  It came right after the company fired the CEO XYZ PRQ... I don't know all the initials but there was a dramatic rift in the company and I had just been hired on and it was a really emotional and scary time.  The CEO came in to say goodbye to us in tears.  It was aweful.  Anyhow my boss took us all out for this walk (we never do that in real life so I'm not sure why I dreamed this except to think it means that, and it kind of fits now, that he lead us for awhile but along the way ticks kept dropping on me from the trees and crawling up my legs.  I was freaking out but every body else seemed so calm.  Slowly but surely though the ticks started to climb on the others and we ended up running back to the office screaming and tearing ticks off of our bodies as fast as we could.  When we walked back into the office all of the "rest" of the upper management were carrying desks and shelves and all kinds of belongings out of the office.  There was nothing left.  We asked where they were going and they told us that the company had gone under and that they had decided to start up a painting business.  I thought it was insane but we all kind of came in wandering around looking at things and I went to get coffee.  At the coffee machine I noticed ticks again.  They were all over hte office too.  And that is when I woke up. I have to say a year later now looking back on this dream right now that I can see t hat this might have been prophetic.  A lot of the symbolism fits and makes me think it was a warning of what was to come.  However if this is the case I need to abandon ship pretty soon.   I am going to have a hyped up weekend again.  I really need my rest but it just doesn't seem to be in the immediate future.  I'm going to up my dose of Seroquel this weekend and I'm kind of scared how I'll react but I can't do it on a workday.  I learned that lesson on Tuesday! So Friday night I up the Seroquel, Saturday I have to get up earlier then I do during the week to get to work.  I normally have to be to work at 8:30 and I have to be at Honda to get my car done at 7:45.  Seriously that is going to kill me! I want to just let my husband go but he is a real push over and the mechanics could sell him a new engine if they said he needed it.  I just don't know what to do.  I don't want to go but I've been putting this off for weeks!  Well that is where I'm at today.  Kind of tired, scattered, like I've just gotten off of a roller coaster and need to walk straight but can't because I just got off of a roller coaster...