Today is my Masters Degree Program Entrance Interview.  I really don't want to go back to school!  Too much stress and demand, but I really want to go back into teaching -(i think)  I am really good at it, and it isn't hard for me to do. I love children (not in a creepy way) I just think they are the closest thing to innocence we experience in this world! They are a gift from God and to be a part of their growth and to prepare them for this nasty world... well I want to help with that if I can. So far I have spent the day talking on forums and putting off work.  I'm really distracted by this interview.  But emotionally I'm nothing.  I'm not happy, not sad, not depressed but also not ok.  Kind of like I'm teetering above it all looking down you know.  Does that make any sense?  I'm working very hard in my mind not to think about some of the stuff I"ve been going through, and I'm not speaking any of the stress... Sometimes talking about it makes it live longer and take more control over my emotions... So I'm reactionless right now.  I don't know how long I can hold this off without starting to smoke though :-)... Anyhow this is me today so far.