Man do I feel like giving up.  I feel alienated and outcast from my coworkers.  People are so ready to judge when you "can't or don't" control yourself, which I have yet to decide whether we have control over ourselves or if this is like terretz.  Not that they know I am having trouble getting pregnant and bipolar but still every one has bad days.  Just mine is a lot worse for right now.  I don't feel suicidal but I do feel a lot of despair.  A coworker/friend of mine thinks htat I should stay at the job for awhile longer because I would then prove to them that I am not the outburst they expereinced from me.  The one outburst I had at this job in the entire time I have been here. Whatever!