So Lamictal is starting to stop working ... or I'm getting used to it and noticing weaknesses... Either way I'm starting to have problems controling myself.  Last Friday my boss sent me an email that upset me and I flipped.  I mean totally flipped out cursing and carrying on saying all kinds of very mean things almost like I had terretz ... however you spell that.  Fifteen minutes later I was like ... Oh dear I shouldn't have said those things.  Anyhow what I said got back to him and I almost got fired.  Can you believe it! This life totally stinks!  By almost got fired he told me he was giving me my first and last written warning and next time I will be packing up my things!   To make matters worse I havne't gotten pregnant yet.  Getting pregnant was the main reason I wanted to be on Lamictal.  It is supposed to be safer than any of the other drugs says my psychiatrist.  However now the lamictal doesn't seem to be working.  So no baby and no help from drugs... Not a good place to be for me.  I took a sedative today so I wouldn't cry all day but I'm really not with it.  I'm not depressed and I'm not manic I'm just nowhere and then allover! For those of you who pray and see this.  Please pray for me.