OK so let's back up... Thursday was the last time I wrote.  Friday was equally miserable but i got out of work early and went to a baseball game here in Nashville. That was kind of nice.  Saturday was ok.  It was a bit rough I was all over the map and extra anxious and irritable.  I smoked 5 cigarettes that day (that always indicates my stress level).  Sunday I smoked one and it was a pretty good day.  We discussed selling our house and going back to renting and we celebrated father's day.  I spent a good deal of time cleaning and cooking this weekend and that was theraputic.  Now my son has some kind of 4 tiny blisters where he accidentally hit himself last night with a hard toy and I am worried about that. Today I feel great/good.  I'm able to focus on my work and work out some budget problems.  I'm totally awesome at multi tasking which means I'm at a working level of mania.  I hate that every mood I have can be attributed to an aspect of this disease.  I know that there is a tiny bit that actually relates to my environment and what happens to me and that there are triggers but right now my life is just one big gun pointing at me with multiple triggers firing it at me at least once a week.  Between budgets, and kids, and husbands, and work plenty of stress and triggers! Plenty! Anyhow doing great today thank you all for your concern.