Well well well... How about that I'm bad again. Man I hate this stupid freaking life! It is so ridiculous! I hate work, I hate people at work... I've started smoking again and I"m finding it much harder to quit again. Normally I start up and smoke for a month and then quit pretty easily but this time all I can think about is that today isn't the best day to quit so I keep on smoking. My finances are stressing me out again. I wish my husband would deal with them instead of me. I have to handle all the books, family insurance, cars car upkeep car ins car maint... I have to manage the lawns, cook the meals, bath and do bedtime for my son as well as morning preparation. I'm just exhausted and today I really just want to escape... Get away from it all. I'm in the throws if serious crap.