I'm starting to feel better with the upped dosage of the Lamictal. I'm still quite overwhelmed and want my husband to be the strong one and he is not. It is so hard to try and be stable and try and be strong when I feel so many confusing things! I just want to lean on someone for a while and get my mind straight. I'm sure a lot of you out there have that person, but for me for a lifetime I've been that person for everyone else. I just need someone now maybe not forever but for r ight now and I dont' have it... that is hard and scary.