This has been one of the worst days I've had in a long long time. I hate the fact that I feel like I can't trust my emotions but a lot has happened to upset me. First I found out my in home daycare providers son had croup. So I researched that and called my dr who said don't go back for a week. (great!) When I lined up alternate care the lady was supposed to be here at 7 am, needless to say she arrived at 11:30.4 1/2 hours to late! I go to work (the only peace I had the entire day) I come home and am at odds with my completely unemotional, totally unsupportive, and inattentive husband. Who yes cooked dinner for me but no did not say more than 2 words to me at all. I give the baby a bath and when I am putting his diaper on notice a new freckle... upon closer inspection it was a blood sucking tick! I have nightmares about these things. I totally hate anything that bites or sucks blood so I start freaking out. My husband does his usual shut down and play retarded. I just hate this whole freaking existence! It is impossible to keep our kids safe, or to find a husband who cares enough not to play possum every time things don't go his way, or to stay on a stable emotional playing field. I hate life!
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hey tizzy, i just wanted and needed u to know that i have a hubby that does the same thing... he is a hubby of only 3 months...but he insinuates that he wont be able to handle me long term lie years....and i have been fairly stable comparably to what i usually get hooked up with. He hates confrontation, i have only had sex 2 times in 3 months and i am VERY good at it. but my hubby has a brainfreeze when it comes to that. so he says. I would rather be ANYWHERE but here with him. I thought he was my soulmate but he is not.... and that hurts alot too. He says that maybe a divorce(last nite) or an annulment (tonite) would be best.. so that i can get my benefits for disability. i think he is right... we are nothing but friends sort of speak. anyway, i agree, I HATE life 2!