Balancing the check book is such an aweful experience. I have been doing a much better job of the bills and figuring out how to budget but I am still no expert! I am moving towards living even better within our means though. We are working hard to get out of debt and I am pleased to say as of today we have paid off like 6 or 7 accounts past due that we owed. This is a great feeling but I still have a long way to go. Mania has almost absolutely ruined us financially! I hate being bipolar for that reason.

I know a lot of people love their manic phase, but I have been so hurt by what I have done during that time that I just would prefer to be satisfied all of the time. Not happy, and not sad but just satisfied.

I'm feeling stable today. It is nice to be here. I have a lot of stressful things going on in the next few weeks so please pray for me. I am going to fire my psychiatrist and find a new one so also please pray for that too. I really appreciate all of your support. Please if you think of it keep it coming. It really really means a lot to me.