5 am my husband tries to get me up. I use the bathroom long enough to get him out of my hair and roll back into bed. 5:30 the alarm goes off I turn it off and roll back into bed. 6 am I finally drag myself out of bed to soak in the tub for a 1/2 hour. It's my way of taking space and time to adjust myself and prepare myself for the upcoming stressors of the day.
I don't really feel bad but I'm not sure I feel even Ok... I kind of feel blazey! I feel warn out like I need some kind of change. I've really been craving some danger, some escape from the responsibilities. I've been really obssessed with going out drinking partying and just being out there again playing the field. I know that is terrible and I haven't pursued the feeling at all. I"m trying really really hard to be the responsible mom! Nevertheless these crazy ideas and feelings overwhelm me sometimes and I just want to throw caution to the wind. Today is one of those days. I just want to do something bad, but I don't want to have to deal with the aftermath. Pray for me!
I don't really feel bad but I'm not sure I feel even Ok... I kind of feel blazey! I feel warn out like I need some kind of change. I've really been craving some danger, some escape from the responsibilities. I've been really obssessed with going out drinking partying and just being out there again playing the field. I know that is terrible and I haven't pursued the feeling at all. I"m trying really really hard to be the responsible mom! Nevertheless these crazy ideas and feelings overwhelm me sometimes and I just want to throw caution to the wind. Today is one of those days. I just want to do something bad, but I don't want to have to deal with the aftermath. Pray for me!
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Hey there I know where you are comin from. There are times I want to run from all my responsibilities too. It is just a rough day. I am praying for you. I understand how you feel. You know I have a lot all the time too. Sometimes I just feel like I can\'t breathe with all of it but the feeling passes. Just remember your husband and child need you. I always remember my family needs me to be there and hold on. It is hard sometimes but we have purpose in our lives. I used to drink when I was younger so there are times I want it until I realize it makes things worse. Pray for strength b/c I know you can beat these emotions. Your husband and child love you,God loves you, and my family does too.