Day before Christmas Eve. I feel horrid. Emotionally I feel like I am ready to crack. 
Yesterday I signed up for a dating site. Figured maybe in the new year I could meet new people. Well based on where I live guess who I find. My X. So I take a gander at her profile. Biig Mistake. SHould have never done that. All her wants and needs were basically what she would tear into about during breakups. 
I really cant understand why I cant let her go...but I guess if she is searching for someone new then chances are she is not coming back. Why did I think she would. Why did I think she would come back. Why do I still want her back. I just am so confused. 
 
FML!!