My horoscope for today said to write things out. So here i go.
I am so tired...pyscially, mentally, emotionally. I am angry and everything seems to rub me the wrong way. I'm always saying things I do mean and lately I have been hurting so many people. Without meaning too.
I have this friend. She has been there for me a lot. She knows I am into women. Knows I would like to be with a women. She herself has admitted to wanting the same thing. Now before you ask no...we dont want to be together in that way.We have recently been out together trying to meet new women. Its been a roller coaster. I got into a group of women and then was kinda let down when I showed to one of there events. Seemed they were and older crowd. Anyways since then my friend has become more vocal about her life. She had admitted awhile back that her heart was keen on a women who is already in a relationship. She has kinda becomed obsessed with this girl. first it was just occasionally stopping at her work. Then it became more and more. Then times she would drop me off after being out she would drive down a street near my place that I didnt know. Then she fills me in that thats where the gal shes into lives. So then...I am started to think this is a tad much, but being the person I am decide not to say anything. It progresses. Gets worse. Now she uses any excuse to see her. Nothing happens. Occasional chat. So halloween comes and my friend asks me to go with her and her daughter (yes she has a kid and is with a guy sorry forgot to add that) so anywyas we go trick or treating out near where they live, and then they came to drop me off. So then she drives by her stalkees house and says oh we should go trick or treating here. I was like well all the lights are off, and shes like noo...still some on...so I get out and we got right up to her stalkees door and knock, well her kid of course says oh hi....and then it was like we were caught. Nothing happened in terms of confortation. Then this saturday my friend is like oh i saw her, she was walking her dog, I and I drove by reallllll slow. fast forward to today I am babysitting her kid and a cop shows up at the door. Now I didnt know what it was about until after it happened. At first I was worried it was that something had happened to her partner because he had gone away. So i was cooperative and told the cop what he needed to know. Then I emailed my friend at work and told her. So when she got home she needed to go meet the cop and then she said the cop was there because her stalkee had called the cops. it was so intense I was like freaking. I was like ok no more visiting her at work, and or her home. Promise me and shes like I promise I am done. But....my heart thinks she will still keep wanting her. It was so unreal.............................
I am so tired...pyscially, mentally, emotionally. I am angry and everything seems to rub me the wrong way. I'm always saying things I do mean and lately I have been hurting so many people. Without meaning too.
I have this friend. She has been there for me a lot. She knows I am into women. Knows I would like to be with a women. She herself has admitted to wanting the same thing. Now before you ask no...we dont want to be together in that way.We have recently been out together trying to meet new women. Its been a roller coaster. I got into a group of women and then was kinda let down when I showed to one of there events. Seemed they were and older crowd. Anyways since then my friend has become more vocal about her life. She had admitted awhile back that her heart was keen on a women who is already in a relationship. She has kinda becomed obsessed with this girl. first it was just occasionally stopping at her work. Then it became more and more. Then times she would drop me off after being out she would drive down a street near my place that I didnt know. Then she fills me in that thats where the gal shes into lives. So then...I am started to think this is a tad much, but being the person I am decide not to say anything. It progresses. Gets worse. Now she uses any excuse to see her. Nothing happens. Occasional chat. So halloween comes and my friend asks me to go with her and her daughter (yes she has a kid and is with a guy sorry forgot to add that) so anywyas we go trick or treating out near where they live, and then they came to drop me off. So then she drives by her stalkees house and says oh we should go trick or treating here. I was like well all the lights are off, and shes like noo...still some on...so I get out and we got right up to her stalkees door and knock, well her kid of course says oh hi....and then it was like we were caught. Nothing happened in terms of confortation. Then this saturday my friend is like oh i saw her, she was walking her dog, I and I drove by reallllll slow. fast forward to today I am babysitting her kid and a cop shows up at the door. Now I didnt know what it was about until after it happened. At first I was worried it was that something had happened to her partner because he had gone away. So i was cooperative and told the cop what he needed to know. Then I emailed my friend at work and told her. So when she got home she needed to go meet the cop and then she said the cop was there because her stalkee had called the cops. it was so intense I was like freaking. I was like ok no more visiting her at work, and or her home. Promise me and shes like I promise I am done. But....my heart thinks she will still keep wanting her. It was so unreal.............................
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