It's Christmas day and I went to the DIA hotel to try to meet with the manager and hand over my application to him. But, it was so busy! He was driving the shuttle to and from the airport and hotel and didn't have anytime to talk so I left my application with the lady at the front desk. I hope that he gets everything and I get that interview and that job. There is a new yogurt guru opening near my house so I think that I am going to apply there as well. I am also checking into jobs at 7-11. Although, I think that some 7-11s are not very safe, some sketchy people come in and out of those store and I am sure that there is a lot of theft. I don't know what is going on. Why is it so difficult to find a job?
 
I think that things can be worse though. I could be unable to work. I am so confused, I told luke to send an card to my mom just so she gets something on Christmas and then when she opened it she started crying a lot. I don't think that she is proud of me. It is nice that dad always tells me that he proud that I keep trucking along and keep going. I feel bad most of the time being here. I can't wait to see my psychiatrist and talk with her. I missed an appointment, my last appointment with her and I feel so bad. I can't keep doing this to her. I bought a large planner like the ones that are the sizes if notebooks and those usually help me. I have been trying to go digital but that isn't going over well. It's not as easy for me to see if it is not just look at something that it written or literally in front of me and easy to access. 
 
We are watching home alone now and getting dinner ready. I wish we weren't because I hate all of the energy that goes into it, when we would just be happy with a pizza. I am going to watch Home Alone.
 
Goodnight moon.