I don't know how I am feeling right now. There was a cancellation with my doctor tomorrow so I am going to take the opportunity and go talk to her and maybe get all of my prescriptions refilled. My mom took me up Colfax and I bought another car the other day. It's a Ford Contour GL 1998 and it has like 151,000 miles on it, but hey it was $1500 out the door and I really needed a cheap car. 
 
Yesterday I started a canvasing position with Cherry Creek North and I also had an interview for a massage parlor in a couple of the concourses of the Denver International Airport. I really want that job because it has benefits and it is simply a real job. She was supposed to email me with next steps by today at 1:00pm and it is 3:12pm now, so I emailed the owner, the woman that posted the job and that I have emailed before and I asked for some contact information for Kim, the interviewer. I really want and need that job. Other than that there is a hotel near DIA that is looking for front desk staff. I think that I will go over there tomorrow and fill out an application and see what happens from there. 
 
Mom says that we need to talk after the holidays, however I think that it will blow over after a while. She wants to yell at me about going through my inheritance so fast. Well what's going to happen now? It's not like I am going to magically get the money back. I am going to get a job and make money and hopefully soon move out of my mom's ouse and get a small studio. I can't think about this now. 
 
I just want a job. A good one would be nice, however, one with benefits would be even better. I want to be apart of something. I want people to see me and interact with me.
 
This is a time of year that I always anticipate because I like the cold and the holidays and the snow. This year is different. There will be no Nutcracker and there will be really no gifts or family or happiness. Every time I talk to my mom she is short, yells and has a mean town to her speech. I don't know how to change it I don't know what to do or how to change the responses. We live together and see each other every day and for long periods of the day. 
 
I am so tired and I have so much to do. I am doing surveys in Cherry Creek, a high-end shopping district and I interview people and ask some questions, but the person who is supervising calls me like three times  a day. I guess that is what happens with these types of positions. Well I have to go and get some things done. 
 
Goodnight moon