It's coming close on my birthday and I think that I just had a great weekend. I was definitely manic and I think that I may still be a bit manic. I don't think I am ready to go down yet. But, I am wondering what that down is going to look like when it happens. I am on some new dosages of seroquel and I am trying lunesta for sleep now which makes me sleep a bit better, but I am not sure what it is going to do to my mood. I am also on an ADHD medication that doesn't have a stimulant in it. Strattera. 
 
Anyway this weekend I went to Glenwood Springs, Aspen, and then Black Hawk where I stayed at one of the casinos. Jacqui and DeShon came up and got a room too and Katie came and surprised me!!! Not a word from Rachael however. I don't know what's wrong with her. My birthday is on Tuesday. I don't know what to do about that situation, I am not going think about it. I gambled some and made decent money off of it. But I was mostly pleased by the fact that my friends came to spend time with me. 
 
I keep researching suicide for some reason. I am obsessing about it. Researching statistics and state rankings. http://www.AFSP.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=home.viewPage&page_id=F2F25092-7E90-9BD4-C4658F1D2B5D19A0
Maybe I am just confused... or overly manic. I'll try to analyze it further. 
 
Goodnight moon.