I have no clue what to think. I think that it's a waste of my time to go celebrate Rachael's birthday when I know that there is no reason to and she wont appreciate the gesture. I would rather give her a gift tomorrow and then go to Crested Butte early and find something to do there. The more and more I think about the situation the worse I feel about it. I don't want to have anything to do with this. She never celebrates with me, she doesn't even care about what is new with me or what happens with me and the last time she cared about my birthday I was 18. I don't know how to take this in. I feel that it might just become a disappointment. But at the same time what am I going to do in CB? who will I be able to hook up with? Will Hannah be available or Kasey or Maddie? I am intrigued however, how it will be if I do leave. I think that my mom wouldn't care but would Katie and Rachael get upset? I'm somewhat upset that Rachael has invited all of these people to this event that Katie has organized and it just seems a bit selfish. I don't know what to do, I am going to have to ponder this over a bit more. 
 
Goodnight moon.