I am dieting and losing weight from it, but recently I purchased and have been taking this medication... over the counter, called CTS 360 It burned a few pounds off of me but it makes me feel horrible. I am sick to my stomach and sometimes vomiting, I get headaches and body pains odd swings of energy and then fatigue. Today was the first morning that I have not taken the drug and I feel odd now too. I think that this might be a detox period. I am going to try to drink a lot of waited and wash it out of my system. I love spinning, but I stopped doing it for some reason. It's not that I don't like it or that I lost interest, but I just can't get myself to go do it. That was a great way to loose weight and it was working too, I think I just wanted the easy and quick way out, but in the long run it hurt me more than it helped me.
I have sleeping pills on my night stand next to my bed. I got them a couple weeks ago and I looked lat night and there are only four left. I think that my mom might be taking them from me for her own use. Last night she took pills and drank a good deal of alcohol and then was crying and depressed because she lost a friend (Jane) who is being quite rude to her lately. Fuck her. But, I still don't think that my mom should be self medicating. She does this often and I don't like dealing with it and I don't like seeing it. I don't know what to do. I don't want to move back to my dad's, that doesn't seem like a logical option and I have told my mom to either take pills or drink but don't do both. I think that she smokes pot all the time too which doesn't help the matter. I'll have to think about what to do.
I can't find a job. I am considered for many yet never get even an interview. Is it because I have less than desiereable credit or because of my mental health background or because I have my medicinal marijuana license or is it because of something else I don't know about? I am just so confused and frustrated. A while back I got a position with Denver Public Schools and right as I finished orientation and was about to jump in the director sent me a very short email basically telling me that I was no longer needed. I asked her why and she said that she was not at liberty to say. What does that mean? How can you keep something like that confidential from the person that it is regarding. Well, unless it was just some bullshit shrug off. I don't know.
I am at my campus library because the auto shop fucked up the wheels on my car and now they need to put everything back on correctly and it is going to take them two hours. Thankfully I have only an hour left to wait so that's not too bad. But, it's been such a hassle and I am not feeling good and I am falling asleep right now. I want a new TV for my bedroom see as the flat screens are all so inexpensive these days. But, I know that later on down the road will probably need the $250 for something better and more important to me. Plus I already spent over $3,000 for this laptop... although I love it to death. I goes everywhere with me. I want to go to the outback steakhouse and get a blooming onion. I had one a long time ago and I am just tempted by it now. I think I am going to blow some time and surf the internet.
Goodnight moon.
I have sleeping pills on my night stand next to my bed. I got them a couple weeks ago and I looked lat night and there are only four left. I think that my mom might be taking them from me for her own use. Last night she took pills and drank a good deal of alcohol and then was crying and depressed because she lost a friend (Jane) who is being quite rude to her lately. Fuck her. But, I still don't think that my mom should be self medicating. She does this often and I don't like dealing with it and I don't like seeing it. I don't know what to do. I don't want to move back to my dad's, that doesn't seem like a logical option and I have told my mom to either take pills or drink but don't do both. I think that she smokes pot all the time too which doesn't help the matter. I'll have to think about what to do.
I can't find a job. I am considered for many yet never get even an interview. Is it because I have less than desiereable credit or because of my mental health background or because I have my medicinal marijuana license or is it because of something else I don't know about? I am just so confused and frustrated. A while back I got a position with Denver Public Schools and right as I finished orientation and was about to jump in the director sent me a very short email basically telling me that I was no longer needed. I asked her why and she said that she was not at liberty to say. What does that mean? How can you keep something like that confidential from the person that it is regarding. Well, unless it was just some bullshit shrug off. I don't know.
I am at my campus library because the auto shop fucked up the wheels on my car and now they need to put everything back on correctly and it is going to take them two hours. Thankfully I have only an hour left to wait so that's not too bad. But, it's been such a hassle and I am not feeling good and I am falling asleep right now. I want a new TV for my bedroom see as the flat screens are all so inexpensive these days. But, I know that later on down the road will probably need the $250 for something better and more important to me. Plus I already spent over $3,000 for this laptop... although I love it to death. I goes everywhere with me. I want to go to the outback steakhouse and get a blooming onion. I had one a long time ago and I am just tempted by it now. I think I am going to blow some time and surf the internet.
Goodnight moon.
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