Today I went to my psychiatrist and significantly reduced my seroquel level and we stopped my klonopin in the morning, so really I am just taking medications in the evening! Before I went to see her I went on a great bike ride down the Cherry Creek trail. It was so much fun and a great workout. It did remind me of spinning. What was funny was that going from the house to downtown was somewhat simple, but coming back up was so difficult to climb up to the Highlands. My bike is a mountain bike, which I don't mind, but a road bike would have done better today. Though, I don't ride to work or to school so there is no need in owning a very expensive bike or a road bike in general.
I haven't talked to Rachael in a couple of days which is actually refreshing. I don't want to get too close like both my mom and Katie have told me. They're right, she has hurt me too many times. The first night that I saw her again she racked up almost $100 on to my credit card because she wasn't carrying enough money with her. She left her purse at Katie's house, but tried to duck out and she even neglected to say goodbye to me that night. But Katie brought me back to her house and gave me cash from Rachael's purse... thank god she did that. Then the other night we were going to a movie and she told me that she had no money to go because she was putting down a deposit or something. But, then after the movie (where I paid for the two of us) she told me that she was going to go again tomorrow.... Well with what money Rachael? I need to stop being with her alone. With other people we are fine and I am not caught in those situations, but solo I am and then I am caught off guard and I start to give more to the relationship than I really should. My estate is not Rachael's and never will be. Money will be spent carefully and without her.
I am still thinking of what type of vacation I want to go on. Like should I go to Mexico or should I stand for wonderful Chicago. It must be the high season for Chicago because the Drake hotel is completely booked. OR should I take a weekend and just go to Aspen? I think that I will have to research it more. Aspen might be nice, somewhere I haven't been in a long time.
I gotta go.
Goodnight moon.
I haven't talked to Rachael in a couple of days which is actually refreshing. I don't want to get too close like both my mom and Katie have told me. They're right, she has hurt me too many times. The first night that I saw her again she racked up almost $100 on to my credit card because she wasn't carrying enough money with her. She left her purse at Katie's house, but tried to duck out and she even neglected to say goodbye to me that night. But Katie brought me back to her house and gave me cash from Rachael's purse... thank god she did that. Then the other night we were going to a movie and she told me that she had no money to go because she was putting down a deposit or something. But, then after the movie (where I paid for the two of us) she told me that she was going to go again tomorrow.... Well with what money Rachael? I need to stop being with her alone. With other people we are fine and I am not caught in those situations, but solo I am and then I am caught off guard and I start to give more to the relationship than I really should. My estate is not Rachael's and never will be. Money will be spent carefully and without her.
I am still thinking of what type of vacation I want to go on. Like should I go to Mexico or should I stand for wonderful Chicago. It must be the high season for Chicago because the Drake hotel is completely booked. OR should I take a weekend and just go to Aspen? I think that I will have to research it more. Aspen might be nice, somewhere I haven't been in a long time.
I gotta go.
Goodnight moon.
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