I don't know if I need some help. I feel like my emotions are going up and down. I am living with my mom and sometimes the household can be depressing. I have a paper to write 5-6 pages due on Monday, but I have no motivation to write it and I am running out of time. I feel depressed right now. I want to go to Arby's and get some food, I am always hungry. This loss of motivation is monumental and i don't want it to get out of hand. 
 
I want to have a good body again. I want to be proud of myself again. I want to be with a partner who is attractive and one that we both have a good sexual relationship. I don't want to settle down, just to settle down. I want to lose weight, get off these drugs and move on into graduate school. I want to become a doctor. I know that it is going to be really difficult but I am willing to make any sacrifices that I need to, to become great. 
 
I gotta go.
Goodnight moon.