Lonely?
Sometimes I just want to cry. I just simply want to cry. Maybe it will make me feel better, but I don't know. It's Friday so I have the weekend, but I also have a lot going on next week with regards to due dates. I'm kinda feeling down so I think that I may go stay with my mom for a day or two and relax and do dome homework. I like the fact that my parents are good friends. I can talk to them and they know what I am going through and they can offer me support.
Last night I had a lot of whiskey to drink and then I smoked a lot of pot and ate all of the junk food that I could find. I cleaned up everything in my room and now I am doing some laundry and then maybe I'll go over to my mom's house for a night or two. Oliver had surgery yesterday so he is somewhat sedated and he is wearing a cone on his hear to deter him from licking himself. Mom and I think that we may go to "Unknown." Then I think that I am going to go do some writing for the assignments due next week. I plan to do some studying for biology on Saturday and Sunday.
I cant wait to learn more about the brain. I hope that I can learn well and get into a great graduate school and become a part of the field of medicine and Make my dad proud... and my mom too.
I had two cups of coffee and I am still pretty tired. I think that I am going to have to use a Rockstar or a 5 hour energy or both. That's what I like about mom's she gives me veggies and makes dinner and we have a lot of fun together. I don't know why I am journaling this because there is nothing really to say right now. Personally, I think that I'm lonely and that's why feel the need to journal and exert my feelings via writing.
But what is the meaning of loneliness? I have family, thankfully, and they are always behind me, but when I want to go out and have a good time with friends, I don't seem to have any anymore. I have neighbors at school but they are nowhere near friends. I have considered going back to being a RA, but that is a lot of work and a lot of stress. There are only a few people who I'll actually call to do something or go out with and they are very busy people as well.
I think that I am going to go now and see what I am going to do for the rest of the day.
Goodnight moon.
Last night I had a lot of whiskey to drink and then I smoked a lot of pot and ate all of the junk food that I could find. I cleaned up everything in my room and now I am doing some laundry and then maybe I'll go over to my mom's house for a night or two. Oliver had surgery yesterday so he is somewhat sedated and he is wearing a cone on his hear to deter him from licking himself. Mom and I think that we may go to "Unknown." Then I think that I am going to go do some writing for the assignments due next week. I plan to do some studying for biology on Saturday and Sunday.
I cant wait to learn more about the brain. I hope that I can learn well and get into a great graduate school and become a part of the field of medicine and Make my dad proud... and my mom too.
I had two cups of coffee and I am still pretty tired. I think that I am going to have to use a Rockstar or a 5 hour energy or both. That's what I like about mom's she gives me veggies and makes dinner and we have a lot of fun together. I don't know why I am journaling this because there is nothing really to say right now. Personally, I think that I'm lonely and that's why feel the need to journal and exert my feelings via writing.
But what is the meaning of loneliness? I have family, thankfully, and they are always behind me, but when I want to go out and have a good time with friends, I don't seem to have any anymore. I have neighbors at school but they are nowhere near friends. I have considered going back to being a RA, but that is a lot of work and a lot of stress. There are only a few people who I'll actually call to do something or go out with and they are very busy people as well.
I think that I am going to go now and see what I am going to do for the rest of the day.
Goodnight moon.
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