I hate the fact that my dad had to remarry. And that he remarried a woman with a kid who are both from Vietnam and although her son is young and has assimilated well. But, she is still very much a foreigner. She cant speak English correctly at all and she doesn't know what she is doing here. It is hard to watch my dad because I know that there are so many other woman who would jump to be a companion to my father. Other women who would appreciate me as well. I think that she is telling my dad that she is afraid of me. I don't have any contact with her other than saying hello and goodbye. I don't think that anyone will be able to feel the pain of her like I do. She is literally horrible. Horrible. 
 
I don't want to do this anymore. But, I am comfortable here. At least I think that I am not as suicidal here. A move might put me over the edge. I don't want to write anymore. 
 
Goodnight moon.