I got an extension for my history paper until Friday at Noon. That takes a lot of weight off of my shoulders. I emailed my other professor too but he has not gotten back to me yet. I also emailed all of them and told that that I will not be in class on Tuesday so now I have Monday Tuesday and Wednesday off to work on those papers. But I think that I am going to go get some pot tomorrow to relax me. This is Colorado and I have a license for marijuana for my vomiting and nausea which I think comes from my medications like all the seroquel I take. I don't know it usually makes me tired and I fall asleep but it may be good for me to relax and get to work on my papers. Plus I just got my real license in the mail and for some reason I really want to use it. I rented a movie for tonight and I really want to watch it but the damn football game is on. 
 
How am I going to get through school like this? My dad said I am going to have to take out loans at the end of 2011 and I cant because of the amount of debt I am in and the hit it has taken on my credit. I don't even have a job. I need to find a job. I need to do something. I volunteered at the museum today and it was really fun. I met some new people and I got out of the house for a while! Now I need to do that and get paid. Sometimes my parents tell me to just go to school and not to work and other times they tell me the exact opposite.What do they want from me.