Sometimes loneliness really gets to me. I get distracted with friends and it can, in some way, make me sane again. But, my friendships don't last long. They end up stopping quickly. Or my friends just end up leaving for something different in a different area. Rachael is one of the only options that I have left as to a friend here in Denver. However, she treats me as an on cal friend, never really giving me the the fine that a friend should. Her Katie and I were planing on going to a baseball game last weekend. We were going to get tickets to a cheap game and just hang out and have fun. When Rachael and I wen to the ticket line she purchased two $40 tickets, one for her and one for Katie. I told her that I couldn't afford this ticket, she did nothing to help or change the situation. I hate that this had to happen, but I don't want to call Rachael anymore, I don't and can't be a art of this relationship anymore. I really don't care. It has drained me to be hurt every time I try to open myself up to her. I will just keep in track with my other friends from high school. My mom has become more and more upset with the situation and she feels that I should simply remove myself from that friendship.
My cousin Emily came in to two at the end of last week and we had a great time together, she wore me out. She smokes a great deal of pot and cigarettes. She wants to move here from Chicago and my mom thinks that it is more of a dream than a realistic journey or life change.
I am beginning school again on the 7th, less than a week and I want to get some more rest and I need to purchase my text books. I only have two classes, one on campus and one on the internet. I am actually looking forward to both courses.
The move is coming closer to the end and I am starting to relax in my new room even though my TV is somewhat temperamental.
I think that this new Seroquel XR is bringing me down during the morning when I wake up and throughout the early morning. Speaking of being tired I've been tired and I think I a going to rest now. Hopefully I will get more to write about later.
My cousin Emily came in to two at the end of last week and we had a great time together, she wore me out. She smokes a great deal of pot and cigarettes. She wants to move here from Chicago and my mom thinks that it is more of a dream than a realistic journey or life change.
I am beginning school again on the 7th, less than a week and I want to get some more rest and I need to purchase my text books. I only have two classes, one on campus and one on the internet. I am actually looking forward to both courses.
The move is coming closer to the end and I am starting to relax in my new room even though my TV is somewhat temperamental.
I think that this new Seroquel XR is bringing me down during the morning when I wake up and throughout the early morning. Speaking of being tired I've been tired and I think I a going to rest now. Hopefully I will get more to write about later.
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