i think that we are all sad and lonely at some points. But, I feel these feeling so many times a day. Theres no one to call or be called by. I sit alone at home for hours with absolutely nothing to do. I can get a job and I have been looking but for some reason I just cant lane one. Loneliness makes me think about suicide, makes me think about the worth of my life. I am over it right now and I can't begin to imagine what my future is going to be like. I am sad in the best scenes and I am scared of what have done in the past and what is going to come in the future. I am always tired I think that it is the medication. 
 
I am still having some difficult issues with my step mother. She is being a bitch but blaming it on the cultural change. I am going to make some dinner, or just sit here depressed. 
 
Goodnight moon.