I thought that sleeping would make things better but all it did was remind me of the mess my life is in. My doctor called me today and I was in a zone with no service and just got her voicemail message. She told me to go up from 400mg to 800 mg of seroquel nightly. I want t increase my xanax dosage in the morning from 1mg ER to 2mg ER and keep the 1mg ER at bedtime. I told my dada about my feelings and my mom so the family is all in the loop and I think that I am safer this way. I refuse to go back into the hospital. Those places scare me and don't help me at all. I feel it is more of a toxic environment there than it is at home. Although home can be toxic too. I have to go to bed.