Well this weekend was not as bad as I thought it would be. I didn't get sick at mom's and I got all of my homework done. I am sitting at a computer in the computer lab at CU. I have been here for a long time, I had mom drop me off very early. My class dosen't start until 11:30pm so I am really bored! I didn't eat anything breakfast and my meds are kicking in so I may get an energy drink here soon, I already had a large coffee at Starbucks this morning. Still depressed though. I saw my teacher this morning when I was putting my stuff away in my locker we talked for a bit and that was nice, I like her. I am still obsessing about this meeting I have to have with the doctor associated with SSI, I am so anxious.
This afternoon I have to take my step brother to the doctor's office. I am sick of doing this. I had to book the appointment this morning and I have to drive him there I am sick of this. His mother should be doing this stuff not me. She wants to be more included or do things... it's her son she should be taking his to the doctor not me. It's just so frustrating. It is not that I don't like to do it or that it is problemsome It's just the fact that everyone assumes me to do it.
Still no word from Rachael, I don't know what her problem is but she has been doing this recently, it's like touch and go and I am sick of it. Just be a friend or don't, it's that simple. Last night I posted something on her facebook wall telling her about Daily Strength and how it can help her, but she didnt want to listen, infact she deleted the post, how rude! I am just trying to be helpful and all she can do is delete my comment. Again, is there something wrong with me? Or are people simply rude and mean to me? What am I doing here?
Michelle still has not even facebooked me back either. Does she not want to be my friend? What's wrong? Am I doing something wrong? I used to have so many friends... so many that I could not find time to spend with them. Now I am alone, by myself. I feel sick I have to get off this computer.
Good night moon.
This afternoon I have to take my step brother to the doctor's office. I am sick of doing this. I had to book the appointment this morning and I have to drive him there I am sick of this. His mother should be doing this stuff not me. She wants to be more included or do things... it's her son she should be taking his to the doctor not me. It's just so frustrating. It is not that I don't like to do it or that it is problemsome It's just the fact that everyone assumes me to do it.
Still no word from Rachael, I don't know what her problem is but she has been doing this recently, it's like touch and go and I am sick of it. Just be a friend or don't, it's that simple. Last night I posted something on her facebook wall telling her about Daily Strength and how it can help her, but she didnt want to listen, infact she deleted the post, how rude! I am just trying to be helpful and all she can do is delete my comment. Again, is there something wrong with me? Or are people simply rude and mean to me? What am I doing here?
Michelle still has not even facebooked me back either. Does she not want to be my friend? What's wrong? Am I doing something wrong? I used to have so many friends... so many that I could not find time to spend with them. Now I am alone, by myself. I feel sick I have to get off this computer.
Good night moon.
Replies