HELP!!!

I hope that someone who is reading this can help me. I really want to move, I want to start something new! I want to move to Chicago. When I am not near my parents I seem to do extremely well. Plus I think that I would do well as a gay man in a real city. Chicago is a better fit for me than Denver. I have always wanted to return home to Chicago and I suppose that this could be the time to do it. I don't have any money and I am afraid that I am going to lose credit that I may have. Then there is the entire worry of moving the little I have to move all the way to Chicago. I have an application to the University of Illinois at Chicago and I am thinking that I can use their dorms, which are fully furnished, and move in there for now. Then I would need to get a job and finance a home either downtown or near the El train. I don't want to have to use my car or I would like to even sell it. I would love to live downtown Chicago, I just don't know if I have the energy, money and motivation to move so far from Colorado. I am so tired. I just wanted get this journal entry out!  Well goodnight moon!