Now my mom is making me feel bad because she says that she is depressed and wants me to come over to her house. Today is one of those heavy feeling days here I am irritated to simply talk on the pone or with another person. I just can't deal with going all the way up there to listen about how she has no friends to turn to. I have had no friends for a long time, simply family. I think that she'll soon find that friends will come and go but family it always there. Friends are not the only answer to everything. I have found that I have more drama and tension from my friendships than I do with my family. I am falling asleep on my kitchen table writing this because I got almost no sleep last night because of agitation. Today my body feels tingly and numb. I am very stressed about the four classes that  I will be taking next semester, it's been over two years since I have taken anything near a full load. My mom sometimes gets on my nerves because she thinks that I need to get a job and maybe return to school at a later time. My brother agrees with her. My dad and I are on the same page and think that I need to push though school and begin a career or go to graduate school. I want to do something fun today but my father has oped out of doing anything but go the the fitness center and then go grocery shopping. What a nice way to spend the Saturday. I suppose it's somewhat my fault too as I have no friends and I look to my father and the family to entertain me over the beaks. I need to remember to get a sleep aide when we are at safeway later. I am so tired, I think that  am going to take a nap or watch a movie.  Goodnight moon.