I feel so heavy again. The weight of my world is on my shoulders. I think that I am stressing about school, finances, friends, family and my volunteer position. Anything that I can possibly worry about.... I am worrying about it. There is one more week for Chi and Ti's break from school and I have until January 19th when I begin school. I feel guilty about having the time off when everyone else is either in school or working. I am simply tired. My mom and I are going to the movies this afternoon and before that we'll go to lunch. I think that I'll just take a xanax in a few and some of the obsession will subside.  Tomorrow I go to the bookstore to pick up my text books for the spring semester. I have completed an application for employment and I'll turn it in there. With all hopes I will get one of the jobs available to students. I was given the job once, but I turned it down a couple of years ago because I wanted to gain a position with the student government. If I was to work with student government I would be unable to work for any other facet of the Auraria Higher Education Center (AHEC). Now I am applying as just a student and have a great deal of time open outside of my academics. My hair is growing so fast and so thick. I am not sure if I should have is buzzed today or if I should simply keep it and style it. I've wanted to grow out my hair for sometime and I think that this might be a good time regardless of my eagerness to get a job.