I know that you all know what I am going through right now, I know that we have all been through it and we stand strong still here together. Yet I am so tired of the days. I wish that they could go faster so I can simply fall asleep. Pride is this Sunday (it's like a gay and lesbian celebration of who we are), anyway I have the social anxiety and no real friends so I would feel uncomfortable gong by myself. But, I also have to work from 1-4 that day so I can justify it through that. I missed my appointment with my psychologist today and I feel really bad because it would have been our second visit. This all just makes me more and more heavy and I am upset about life, it is just uncomfortable... I feel anxious and depressed. I have not logged on to the site for some time... well a few days, and I really think that this site is helping me. I am addicted to it. I feel like I have so many friends on here, everyone knows somewhat of the nature what we are al going through. We can help each other, and we do. I hope that people will keep helping me because I know that I am beginning to come out of all this and I want to stay that way and I need to gain help to do so. I fall easily and I fall hard, it's something that I don't want to experience ever again... even though I know that as a bipolar I may experience something of the like.  I was really getting anxious about the presentation that was supposed to happen on Wednesday and then the class ended up talking for two hours and now the presentations have been bumped up to Monday. Lucy gave us Thursday off as a "mental health day" and Friday we don't have class. So now I will be obsessing constently about this non-graded presentation assignment that I am going to do in a large group. I am so tired. I am always tired. I don't know why... I hate this. I hate hiding.