I told myself that I was going  to journal by witing in my book from now on, but this is safer and much more convient. I am so bedressed. I am in school now for the spring term and I am so tired all of the time. I see my doctor tomorrow afternoon and I think that she amy be able to help me with meds and what not. I tried to kill myself...I was taking a bath and I tried to inhale the water. I did this mutiple time until it just started to hurt me and then I couldn't go on. I am so tired of this, it is effecting me in every way and all I want to do is it to stop. This is not my choice to have this illness and now I am stuck with it for the rest of my life. How can one do this? I wonder how I am going to last, will I wake up tomorrow or wont I? It's a question the I keep asking. Killing myself seems like such a simple solution. This will alllow me to escape from the life that I hate living. I dont wish to be here anymore all I want to do is sleep and not wake up. I dont know what to do anymore. My anxiety is hightened and so is my level of depression. I am not happy and I dont know if I will be happy again.