I am back in the hospital. I was having suicidal thoughts and I am extremely depressed and anxious. I have been here since monday and I am being discharge tomorrow just in time for the fourth of july. I am not feeling suicidal anymore but I am still really depressed and anxious. I have been put on several different medications. It is going to take some time for the medications to kick in but I hope they will work for me. I am wanting to go on vacation with my mom soon, like within the next couple of days. I need to get out of denver and have some fun. I want to do something different I am stuck here and I don't like it. When I get out I will really want to do something and a vacation sounds good right now, even though the psych unit has been relaxing for me. But, I am glad to be discharged tomorrow and I am scared at the same time because I don't know if I am going to become suicidal again or not. It is a really scary situation. Well we will see how it goes.