Today so far I went to the Nurse Practitioner and the Healer. I am trying to begin to believe in the spiritual part of this treatment. The NP refilled my medication but wanted me to see a psychiatrist or a Psychiatric Nurse Practitioner. So I think that it was a productive day.  I am super anxious for my job tonight. I work 6-10pm and I am going crazy about it. I don't know what to wear or what to do.  The anticipation is getting to me and I can't take it. Frankly I am down right scared. I can only hope that all goes well.