Today was wonderful. I graduated from the Porter Hospital program. It was my mom's birthday and we went out to dinner. I am feeling somewhat down today. Maybe i was the end of he Porter Program or maybe something else in my life. I have over $2000 in car repairs that are going to be started tomorrow. I think that it is just one of those things where life throws you lemons and I just need to make lemonade. Go with the flow. But, still I feel depressed. If only there was someway to be who you wan to be without interference from the outside world. I tried to not take one but I had to take a Xanax today to relieve my anxious jitters and what not. I am sure things will get better. There is only room for good change here especially with the great support system that I have right now. It's time to go. Goodnight.