Has it become a fad to be bipolar? Did I miss that news tip? Now with the pop stars coming out as bipolar, most popularly Britney Spears, more and more we see people who are young with bipolar disorder. I hate those who attempt to fake an ilness that has caused me so much pain in this time. My odd dreams continue and I still have yet to see a psychiatrist. I think that tomorrow is the day that I will see Dr. Tank. I will talk to her about the dreams. I have to always have something planned. The IOP wants us to have our days planned by the half hour. On off days and weekends they want us or have something large planned. However, I cannot think of what to do work who to do them with. I think that this weekend is going to be ending up in the Art Museum or at some kind of museum that will fill my time. I'll probably see a couple of movies, do that sort of thing. I really want my mom to play monopoly with me. She bought it and let me pick it our and now i want to play it but she doesn't... I think that I also want to exercise because I need it. Far above everything I think that I need a break. I feel so worn down this week and I think that I need sometime for myself.  But, I am not going to give in to the depression. I am not going to give up on the Porter program when it has been prodding at me constantly. I need to get out of there and back into the world. I need to start living my life and making changes on my own. I have just started my third week at Porter and after four weeks there is a discharge. I hope I am a four week case. It's almost bedtime and I have some things to get done.