I am tired mentally and physically. The medications are wearing on my body and I cant take this much longer. I am going to begin to stop taking them at some point. I hate having to think about not taking m medication, because I know they are helping. I have been talking to the rest of you on this site and I have found that my medications are extremely higher than more of those bipolar sufferers on this site. 1500mg/day of Lithium Carb3mg/day of Klonopin500mg/day of SeroquillThis may seem outrageous to most people, but to me I think that it is not serving me well. What I really am doing is waiting to be admitted to the Intensive Outpatient Program. I don't think I can do it anymore. I don't want to get out of bed. I want to stay, to sleep, to think of my depressed life all the time. The aces and the pains of emotional suffering because I feel so much of what is happening in my life. I hate myself for being so receptive of my emotions, I should know how to be able to control my own thoughts and my mind.Until next time.... whenever that may be.