I can't find it in myself to be happy. It seems as though the simplest thing for some people I cannot grasp. I feel as though I want to just stop taking my medication and start over. However, I know that it is crazy that I want to end my medication but, maybe it is he one thing holding me back. Before everything was great and now life sucks. I don't want to do anything and the only things that I do, do are go to my doctor appointments. I don't know how you simply regain happiness and how did I ever loose it? I am in a constant daze sitting at my computer. It annoys me that my comforter sits on my bed dirty. I don't have the energy to bring my self to wash it. I spend my days in a prison called called home. I have to do everything and have no desire to do so. This week I will be working with the student government as their president. I don't know how to lead while in a depressed state.