Family in for christmas has never been a pleasant thing for me. The added family to a daily rutile are not the greatest mix. My brother significantly agitates my mother and she is not shy to show her bitterness towards him. I think that this morning while opening gifts there was a great deal of tension. I myself have been feeling extreme anxiety about school and what I am supposed to do with my future. It frustrates me. Do I stay in school and pursue that Political Science degree? Or do I roam free for my parents an their pull, and travel and work. I am so depressed. I wish I could leave. Get away from all of this. Not just the christmas rushing but, from America from myself. I cant e different here there is too much of me already invested here. As my mind continues to worry about everything I remember that I have to take my medication. Wishing you a Merry Christmas.