How did this happen? Does one simply wake up one day and become bipolar. Because that is surew what it felt like for me. I keep thinking about how things used to be and how they should be. It's hard to think that everythign is going to be ok again when it is never in your reach. I can't write becasuse I don't know how I am feeling today. I am somewhat excited for my appointment with my doctor, but will the perscriptions work or wont they? Right now I am a wreck and I need major help. But I want some medication that allows me to drink. I turned 21 in November and I have hardly had a drink since. Even on my birthday only my mom and I went out. I have no friends who care to celebrate things like that with me. I dont have friends period. I wish so much that I had friends. It would make a world of difference. However, I have cut myself away ffrom my friends and now do I dont think that I would be able to reign them back in. Hopefully today will shine some light on a new era for me.