I don't know what to feel anymore. I am loving my yoga. My doctor gave me an enormous amount of valium and I am trying to get of of it now. Then I will be switching doctors. She wanted me to take 40-mg three times a day which is huge. That's 4 pills. One Monday we went down to three pills and tonight I knocked myself down to two pills and I will remain on that dosage until Friday, I am hoping that on friday my doctor will allow me to move down to one pill three times a day. I want my lithium to be reduced as well. I am trying to reduce all of this medication so that I can eventually end the drug all together. However, I feel that I want to keep on the lithium because it will help me.  I also want to keep my xanax for my panic attacks.