Still extremely depressed. I try not to show it to my mom so she doesn't get depressed too. Last night I almost killed myself. I drank (or tried to) an entire bottle of wine and then my plan as to swallow all of the lithium that I have. Funny story is...I forgot to take my medication entirely last night. That was really depressing and I think that I am going to talk to Christine about it in our session tomorrow. Because I had such a passion and a motivation to do it. It still scares me.Today has been good, however. I went around the mall and got some applications and talked to some people. Hopefully soon I will hear from someone. I went to this store called Marczyk's Fine Foods and I really wan a job there! It is an independent grocery store and it is so cool. They have a wine store in the back so I hope to work there! I'll keep you posted.