Where is my home?Recently I moved out of the dorms in college to my mother's house to recollect myself and start something new. It's been great living with my mom it is just like living at home with more of a twist. Today I did a lot of work around the house and now things are looking good. I am numerous as to what my future living situations will be though. In March I think my mom has to either but the house or move out. I think that right now she is leaning to move out. I love this old house. It has become a home to me, I love the inside and the outside. However, I am sure that whatever house we choose next will be just as good if not better. When I first moved in to my mom's house I was so anxious about invading her space. She had told me that I can help her choose the next house that she lives in, which really helped, because it gives me a sense of investment in the house...except for the fact that I don't pay rent.What made me somewhat up set this evening was that her boyfriend Rafael is here and he is a wonderful person and I am not sure if she would ever go and live with him in Cederage, Colorado. That would leave me having to move back into the dorm or back home with my dad and his new family, thus going to Western State College, something I do not want to do.Like she always does, she reassured me that this is not a realistic thought and that she would be moving to somewhere else in the Denver area.  What also freaks me out is that I am out of school. Well, I am doing incompletes. I have always thought of it as a sin to be out of school and now I find myself taking a break because of my health. I know I that I am getting better, but I am still freaking out at simple things. I should not be worried about living arrangements, but I do because it adds to the entire future of m education and where I get m degree. You must understand that it is hard for me to fathom not going to law school or some other form of graduate study program. I want to be a professional in my field and I think that a good education is extremely important. I think that I am like m father in that aspect in man ways. I think that he believes in the value of an education. Although, it is a simple piece of paper that hangs in your office once finished, the knowledge you have gained in like nothing else. I depress me immensely that I cannot be in the classroom. I think that is why I spend so much time on campus in my office; because it makes me feel like I am going to school again…. but, really I am with my incompletes. My school work is what I do it is m thing. I am so lonely.