I keep thinking about all of this...If he was thinking about me he would not drop me like this...in the depth...out in nowhere. I am afraid that I become attached to quickly to those who surround me. I am upset about the fact that I invest my trust into an individual and now I am left to think that he has left me only because I was too large of a burden on his personal life. I wish the situation could simply never have happened. This is something that I don’t need at this time in my life.Now is a time in life where I need to re-evaluate the path in which I need to take. What do I really want to do in life? What are my goals? I need to clear my mind and begin to review my life and my lifestyle.I need to find the passion that I once had for school and for life. This passion will give me strength to move forward with life and with my academics. I am glad that I am taking a break from my academics now and exploring different that i can take in my lifestyle.I need to get active again and try to release some of the negative tension and energy. I just feel so self-conscious about what has gone on and about the way I look and feel. I have never felt like this before and I think that the efforts I am exerting surround the energy that I am expressing through my OCD. I am too sensitive. I cry often and feel it as a good source to release the tension of my life and the pressures in it.I am worried about my father. I can't get a hold of him by any means. I know that he is in their same boat that i am and i think that he and I both need some good help together. My depression has overcome my friendships and my personal relationships. I am worried about my father and myself.He is so successful and powerful, however, his depression and anxiety holds him back from what he can really do to help people and everyone else.The day has not ended.